My brother, Dwayne, is home and will be starting his chemo for stage 4 pancreatic cancer on Monday. It is hard to believe how much has happened in the last 3 weeks and how our lives have been changed. Just another reminder that life is so unpredictable and living every day like it may be our last is a good way to live. I knew I had expectations for life, but the older I get the more I realize that it is better to live life without expectations and not hold on too tight to what we think is ours. Reality is that nothing belongs to us and what we do have is a gift and at anytime we could lose it. The only thing that we have that we cannot lose is The Love of God and His promise to never leave us nor forsake us.
Jim Elliot was a missionary in Brazil and was killed at the age of 28, by the people he came to serve and share the love of Christ with. This is what he wrote just before he was killed, ” He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain that which he cannot lose. I love this quote as it brings reality to my life. We do not own anything and if we try to hang on to those things, we will miss the thing that we cannot ever lose. My brother is the sweetest kindest man I know and I had this expectations that he would always be healthy and we would grow old together. We live in the same town and we get together as a family quite often. It is so hard to see him so sick and going through so much pain. I cannot control the things that are happening to my family, but I do know The One that is in control and I know that I can trust Him with whatever He brings into our lives, good or bad.
God gives us health and he also allows our health to be taken from us. Blessed be the name of the Lord. Everyday is a gift and I am thankful for what I have today. His promise is that His grace is sufficient for today and I am experiencing the truth of that through this crisis. My nephew got married last Saturday and my brother was there to celebrate his son’s wedding even though he was so sick. It was a joyous day, but so hard at the same time, yet we all felt God’s presence and we know there were prayers being sent up on our behalf. I am so grateful for the friends and family that have come along side of us and given us support. I know my brother needs and appreciates it. He has always lived his life well, even when things have been hard. He has been a faithful husband, father, brother, son and friend. He is a blessing to the lives he has touched. Praise God from Whom all blessings flow.
Vickie Parker, LMFT
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